The Doors every time

Lately I've been thinking a lot about what it means to be self-destructive and why I seem to go through these stages of extreme behavior. When I was in highschool, I thought it would stop after school, and then after university I thought that maybe I was finally settling down. Now I find I am going through the same thing. I want to go crazy everyday and live life like Jim Morrison.
There is something so romantic about being self-destructive. Choosing it rather than succumbing to it. I guess that's what Leaving Las Vegas is about... I watched that movie once and even though I own it, I still haven't been in the proper mood to watch that movie a second time.
My absolute favorite movie is The Doors. I have seen that movie more times than I could count. I read every book I could find on Jim or by him. I've also watched almost all their real concert footage and documentaries. For a period of about three years, I couldn't get enough.
Then I let it all go.
It's been a while since I've seen the movie now, and all this talking about it is making me get a craving for it. Almost like having a sweet tooth, I need my fix of psychedelic rock jocks...

But, there really is noone out there living it up like past rock idols used to do it. There is too much clean living going on. Charlie Sheen going straight, Aston Kutcher dating an older woman and making it seem boring, and Beyonce saying her values wouldn't allow her to kiss a woman.
Give me a break. I thought celebrities were getting paid so much because of the risk factor involved in being a boozy, drugged and sexed up star.
I didn't think that they're supposed to be living quietly and squirreling away the money. That's their entertainment fund, to be used on having an extreme amount of fun... to entertain us.
Needs to be more arrest photos and videos of drunken stars lashing out at us general folk.
After all, who will the young people look up to? Who will be their Jim Morrison, Janis Joplin or Jimi Hendrix?
Who I ask?
All the kids have these days is Bobby Brown, Jacko and Martha Stewart.
Not cool.

"I pity the fool..."