Freaky

We've been going through some pretty stressful things lately, and so when I went to the doctor to get my ventolin (asthma) prescription refilled I asked the doctor about options for anxiety and panic attacks.
He wrote something more on my precription pad, told me it was for Xanax and that I should take as needed.

I was in and out of his office in 5 minutes with a prescription for some drug that I had heard bad things about.
Mostly I was interested in valium because I've tried it before.
But here I was with Xanax.
I asked the pharmacist for more information about it because I was scared of the things I'd heard about it (addiction, psychotic episodes). Basically she said it was good for my 'symptoms' but that I should be careful about getting addicted to it.
(I love having to be conscious of becoming addicted to something)

So, I filled the prescription for a measly $9.00 and then I went home to do my own research on this drug.
Everything I ended up reading about this drug had to do with how incredibly addictive it is, and also how dangerous it can be if taken over an extended period of time (but if you get addicted how can you stop taking it?)

The doctor and pharmacist told me to take as needed, but because I've been depressed and anxious I feel like I would need it all the time. How can they leave these decisions with me when I am in this strange state of mind?

The big question on my mind after all of this was how can it be so easy and cheap to get a strong, addictive drug like this, but I can't buy a dime bag?
Pot has never had the reputation that Xanax has, yet it so much harder to get (if you don't live in Montreal or Vancouver).

So after all my research I decided to let the Xanax be and I rolled myself a joint.

But I still can't believe how easy it was to get a prescription and how cheap the pills were. No wonder why people are going crazy for the drug. It's a business just like any other and when they want to move a product they make it as cheap as can be.
But at least the kids can't smoke pot. That would be too dangerous. They might relax without having to pay the drug companies.

$9.00 for two weeks worth of pills.
Now that's a war on drugs.